# Stoop Thoughts

## Syd Towle
[@sydneytowle](https://substack.com/@sydneytowle)

> 25, living in NYC, surviving rare cancer, sharing silly thoughts

### Activity

- **Posts**: 2  
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#### Recent Posts

1. **Jun 23, 2026**  
   > I haven’t really wanted to touch my phone. all I want to do is sleep, not be awake for the pain and constant nausea.  
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   > I sit here connected to an IV pole, my new reality. I press the button for pain medication, but it’s never enough. but it’s also too much. I don’t want to sleep all day. become a zombie.  
   > 
   > “you have a very large tumor sitting on your duodenum, blocking any liquid or food from passing through. you also have a lot of liquid pressing on your intestines now. we understand if you don’t wa…

2. **Jun 3, 2026**  
   > So many dreams coming true while living through a nightmare. It feels like I can’t process anything that’s happening; how can life be so full of light, while darkness shrouds my footsteps?  
   > 
   > I love this life so much, it’s impossible to think of it slowly slipping away. So I don’t. All I see is light.

- **Title**: [In Sickness and In Health](https://sydneytowle.substack.com/p/in-sickness-and-in-health)  
- **Published**: May 11  
- **Likes**: 114  
- **Comments**: 2