Syd Towle | Substack

Stoop Thoughts

25, living in NYC, surviving rare cancer, sharing silly thoughts

Jun 23, 2026

I haven’t really wanted to touch my phone. all I want to do is sleep, not be awake for the pain and constant nausea.

I sit here connected to an IV pole, my new reality. I press the button for pain medication, but it’s never enough. but it’s also too much. I don’t want to sleep all day. become a zombie.

“you have a very large tumor sitting on your duodenum, blocking any liquid or food from passing through. you also have a lot of liquid pressing on your intestines now. we understand if you don’t wa…
Jun 3, 2026

So many dreams coming true while living through a nightmare. It feels like I can’t process anything that’s happening; how can life be so full of light, while darkness shrouds my footsteps?

I love this life so much, it’s impossible to think of it slowly slipping away. So I don’t. All I see is light.