A Borderline Personal Story

By Aditi Surendra

· Launched a year ago

A Borderline Personal Story

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

An introduction to BPD

Feb 4, 2025•Aditi Surendra

This annoying cycle of exercise anxiety

Brain associates increasing heart rate with panic attack

Jun 19•Aditi Surendra

Getting diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 40

I watched those around me grow and achieve while I counted the slivers of my self-esteem.

May 18•Aditi Surendra

In 2016, I did questionable things

Our marriage happened in the one bedroom with AC - space and time alone was either scarce or scorching.

Feb 9•Aditi Surendra

Getting diagnosed with BPD and looking it up on the internet

The cacophony of misogynistic and uninformed voices drowns out the voices of survivors.

Dec 23, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Living with BPD

This annoying cycle of exercise anxiety
Brain associates increasing heart rate with panic attack

Getting diagnosed with BPD and looking it up on the internet

Emotional dysregulation

Emotions are intense for me. I will go from 0 to 100 real fast.

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Rage

I learnt to deal with rage very early in my recovery, thanks to living in hostel.

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Loss of touch with reality

TRIGGER WARNING: Descriptions of s**ual abuse

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Self-destructive impulses

TRIGGER WARNING: Descriptions of self-harm, mention of s***ide

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Self harm

TRIGGER WARNING: Descriptions of self-harm, mention of suicide

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Unstable relationships

My new (and renewed) relationships generally follow a pattern, which is a lot like falling in love with a song.

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Fear of Abandonment

The fuel that drives the BPD

Feb 5, 2025•Aditi Surendra

Shifting self image

I see my life in 17 phases

Feb 4, 2025•Aditi Surendra